Day thirty-nine
The thing that death gave you —
your face leaks
your face overflows
Your face is the grave of your nose
your face is the grave of your ears
your face is the grave of your face
once again your face overflows uncontrollably
The subzero temperature grows on your face then dies
(You were underground from the moment you were born)
The air that sticks to your eyes is as cold as the knife blade
the wind that sticks to your heart is as hot as the palm of a hand
You want to shout that you miss me
but there is another ground beneath the ground
You wish to sing solo but you are stuck in the chorus
In this world there is no ear that can make out your voice
Love sickness, the chronic illness of the ghosts!
Love sickness appears daily like the first dawn!
You hang your eyeballs to the ground and plead
You beg to be let in
To have your face overlap with my face
That my tongue is your tongue
That you shed my tears
Water streams out
You hallucinate
You go mad
Kim Hyesoon, “Icicle Glasses” from Autobiography of Death. English translation copyright © 2018 by Don Mee Choi. Reprinted by permission of the publisher.
Source: Autobiography of Death (New Directions, 2018)